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high school friends.high altitude sickness.karoake.jazz.2000 photos.

That about sums up my last week to Colorado. Joanna and I went to shoot Sam and David's wedding and it was such a great experience. I had no computer, just my camera and my phone and it was enlightening to say the least.

I was best friends with Sam in high school so when she asked Jo and I to do her wedding, I was so honored and excited.

Their wedding made my heart swell. Seriously, the love between these two is ridiculous! It's so obvious how much she loves him and he is in love with her, it was really inspiring. I am so happy for her. Looking back over all the years that have passed and all she has accomplished, I am so proud to have been a part of something so magical.

I was excited for the break too. Things around here are on constant go mode. Between keeping the kids on top of homework and baths, planning my wedding, working on getting new business and just worrying about the day to day stresses, I never stop thinking. Colorado was good for that... I did a LOT of thinking.

I have always been the type of person to take advantage of the moments I get to sit and reflect, take a self/life evaluation and make changes or keep doing what's working. This trip was just what I needed to figure out my direction. Over the summer, I got so caught up trying to do a million things and not really asking myself what I wanted to be doing. Now I am excited to make some changes and it really feel like there is a change in the air, and not just of seasons.

Jonathan and I moved into our new home this last weekend and as hard as the moving was on us, we really enjoyed every moment of it, because we were together. Now I know the love haters are vomiting right now but I don't care, because it was special to us. We finally have a home together and that means the world to us right now.

Back in Feb. when we started dating, I had just undergone a huge self reflection trip and things were so scary. Now they just seem "right". Things make sense and for that I am happy. We have had so much happen within such a small amount of time that's taught us love, forgiveness and joy. I am so anxious and excited to become his wife in just 3 short weeks. We are getting married at our new home and the wedding is completely DIY. So nervous yet happy it will be special to us. We have so many amazing friends helping with everything, that I feel truly blessed.

Of course Joanna and I could not be in the same state without doing random photoshoots... we did some at our AMAZING Aloft hotel and at a Denver Jazz club our friend Joe from high school took us to. We had an amazing time and I feel closer to Joanna than ever before. I have known her since Jr. High and I know we are lifetime friends.

 

I really like his style. Not what I remember from high school, but are any of us the same? I hope not!

Estes Park will never be the same. I'm pretty sure we did the best version of "Shot through the heart" by Bon Jovi...ever. Or at least IIII think so and half a dozen military boys too;)

 

Thanks Jo for such an amazing experience and being there for me when I was ill:) I can't wait for the next one! xoxo

“But life is long. And it is the long run that balances the short flare of interest and passion.” -Sylvia Plath

A year ago, I was in the midst of adjusting to a divorce and a new relationship, sorting out my anger with Heavenly Father, sorting out my anger at myself, when I met this boy named Jonathan. I didn't quite remember much about our meeting except that he was a drummer. The day after our chance meeting he found me on facebook and requested me as a friend. He later sent me a message stating: "You are absolutely gorgeous. Just thought you should know." I thought him to be very sweet but I was committed to my boyfriend at the time. The timing was not right for Jonathan and I to become anything more than friends. And thus we stayed facebook aquaintances for the better part of 6 mos.

We were both heavily scarred from previous experiences, some relationship and some personal decisions, but we were both looking for something real...something natural.

Then, in February of this year, I found myself single and was in no way looking for a new love interest. I had been counseled by friends and family to take my time and date and get to know myself. So that's what I was doing. I had no intentions of getting into a relationship and certainly had no dreams of finding Mr. Right at that time. It was the day before Valentine's Day and I was dealing with a love/hate of that day when I got a facebook message from Jonathan...this time inviting me to his show in San Antonio. I replied I might go, gave him my number, he invited me to hang out with his friends before, I went and something amazing happened in our brief meeting that night, so I stayed for his show and thus our road began.

We both had/have such busy schedules that we spoke when we could and he lived in Austin so we didn't see each other again for a while. After about a month of texts and random phone calls and trips to parks and playgrounds we could feel something special was happening. I was so scared to put my heart out there again, but with Jonathan, it's so natural. He is very easy to love.

Fast forward to now... the last 6 months of my life have been the most therapeutic, reflective, exciting times. I have never been in a relationship where who I am was good enough. My thoughts and feelings and beliefs are 100% accepted. I have loved and been loved in my life, but this love is unconditional... as it should be.

On my mother's birthday... August 9th, 2010... Jonathan walked me to a playground where he had written in the sand. No one can know how perfect this was to us. He had printed every photo we had ever taken together (and we take a lot) and tied a ring in the rope around it. I answered the question written in the sand that night "Kim, will you marry me?" with no hesitation... "Yes." And as I sat and thumbed through the 100+ photos, I knew I was exactly where I was supposed to be. That, in that moment, I had made the right decision and all the mistakes and good decisions that made up my life road were worth it. Each photo meant something different and unique to us. Some with friends, some with Jade and Lulu, some with just us, some of just me he liked, some of randoms objects and numbers that meant something to only us... all permanent reminders of our special connection.

I have had a ton of support from  friends and family lately but I have also faced some worry from friends who were nervous it was too soon, but all have reaffirmed what I have thought for 6 mos, that to know Jonathan is to love him. I love that people are concerned but I don't think love has a time limit. I do think that when you finally get to a place where you are being yourself, you love yourself and you have no expectations on when love will come, it can. I am continually adjusting to my life being so drastically different now and I will continue to make mistakes, fall down and get up again, but one thing I am certain of is this love. He inspires me because of who he is. I never believed that saying "you find love when you aren't looking" until now. Call me a true believer. The bad days go a little faster now, and the good ones linger forever. I am excited for our future together and having a love that will inspire our friends and children. One that doesn't judge and is not built on anyone else's idea of how love should be... just ours.

I will need a lot of advice on planning a wedding as this will be my first real one. So if there are any ideas or suggestions or good websites, feel free to share with me.

So that's my engagement story... What's yours?

This is the real color... I did not want another diamond... I have always wanted an aquamarine stoned ring;)

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Fruition

I wish I had more time to be here but I've been away for good reason. A while back I decided I wanted to get into doing more video and teaching projects. Through the relationships I've built over the past few months doors have opened to doing both. I have the most awesome feeling when I see an idea or concept come to life and lately I have seen many. I had the opportunity to produce my First TV show called "A Night of Fashion" hosted by my roommate and fellow webcaster Jennifer Coffey. To be perfectly honest, I was super nervous about all the logistics of such a production. But I had amazing support from start to finish and through it all I learned a lot about myself and what I'm capable of. I really feel it's these times in life that show us just how big our dreams can be. My friend Chris helped film it all and Jen did an amazing job hosting it. I had some bumps along the way with editing but my awesome friend Mack helped me over them. Jen brought me a ton of cheetos and skilttles and peanut butter and apples the whole time and Jonathan was an amazing support. In the end, it's a project I'm very proud of... Something I was happy to put my name on. I will continue to learn more and will someday look back on this as just a starting place. For those of you who are local...you can watch it on Time Warner 988 under Art and Cultural. Jen and I have also continued with our weekly webcast. You can check it out at http://ustream.tv/channel/Kim-n-jen. The photos last are of Jen and I switching personalities for a day. She even spray painted her hair red:)

I've also had the opportunity to start some projects with a social media group. My friend Melina and I have started speaking on branding and marketing your business, as well as, a project I will explain more about later. For now I am excited about the big changes happening and all of the people I'll be working with. Today I am grateful... For the opportunities For the excitement For the day. Happy Thursday friends!

 

meet jonathan...

he is:

my boyfriend.

a drummer.

my best friend.

funny.

eccentric.

loved by many.

intelligent.

creative.

caring.

carefree.

This boy is the calming force in my life. I met Jonathan after a year and a half of turmoil within my life and myself. He changed that. He allows me to be myself. He brings out the best in me and has taught me true, unconditional love. He makes me laugh when things get crazy. He makes me cry with the love he so freely gives. He loves his family and my children with such passion. He loves his profession with such conviction.

I never knew I could know love so deep until I found myself in love with him. The rough times in life seem smaller with him around. He has never raised his voice to me, nor I to him...something my past made me believe was impossible in a relationship. He helped warm the bitterness I had been carrying for so long.

He sees the world through the same glasses I do. He is colorful and full of life and attracts light in all that he does. He has taught me that no one is perfect and acceptance is key in relationships. He isn't perfect. I am not perfect. Our love is.

I was reading a message that he wrote me with 100 things he loved about me and realized how I never want to take what I have for granted. This love doesn't come often. It takes work to be understanding and grateful daily...to let the little stuff go...to be yourself and let love guide you.

So Jonathan I want you to know, I enjoy every moment I spend with you...

how you make me smile with one look

how you like the way I say "internet"

the love you show my friends, my family and my children

your love of Motley Crue and Bon Iver

the random photos you send me from the road

how you spend more time on your hair than I do

that you don't care if I'm online, on Tv, or on the radio

how the crazy disappears when we are together

how you are so supportive of everything I do

that you dance with Madi

that you hold Jade when he's sleeping

that you told my mother you loved her too

you watch my show like you are my biggest fan

you tell me I'm pretty even when I look a mess

that deep stare you give that takes my breath away

that we say the same thing at the same time constanly

that I feel safe with you

your humility, your passion and your hope

I love it all.

.iloveyou.

 

 

ps folks: I have not been around due to some big decisions I had to make with the direction of my blog in reference to sponsors and such. I am also in the process of having a design of my sites made.

As you can notice I have no links to sponsors. Making the decision to not have sponsors and do my own thing was hard, but I simply have to time to be tied to projects others require, especially when the things I'd be promoting don't really apply to my life anymore. So this blog is for me, when I want to write and how I want it to be.

Also, I had to change the name out of a tad bit of drama with another blogger who had already branded the Like Lucy name. I had no idea. Rosebud is my nickname so I'm okay with that:)

I miss this place and hope that now without all the demands, it can be a place of expression and sharing. Thanks to everyone who continues to email me words of support and love. xo

 

Sweet and sweeter

Jonathan brought me a coconut snowcone at work today.

It was good seeing him this weekend. He had been in Portland recording last week and I missed him!

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It's the Catalina wine mixer...

Well not really but yeah.

This was one of the craziest weeks ever. I'd like to say it's not the norm but...sigh.

This week I...

*Moved in 3 days time.

*Attended the NSIDE publications event in Boerne TX with Jen.

*Taped an interview for a local tv show about social network marketing.

*Donated to Jeremys Kids (firefighters get me every time)

*Made a roadtrip to Austin with two lovely redheads...Amber and Kacee.

*Took advantage of Jade and Lulu being with their dad to start buying things for their summer care packages.

*Prayed a lot.

*Laughed a lot.

*Started weeding out the negative people in my life.

*Thanked Heavenly Father for the positive ones.

*Started over again.

Looking forward to this next week already!

Have a lovely one!

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I'm happy that I have brought laughter because I have been shown by many the value of it in so many lives, in so many ways. Lucille Ball

There's been a lot of laughter in my life lately...

Whether it's been a result of interaction with my amazing friends or me laughing at myself or simply a coping mechanism, it's been good.

My life is a constant work in progress. Geez, I am a constant work in progress as well. But I am a true believer that laughter is the best medicine so I'm going to take the opportunity to use it whenever possible. I have never heard sweeter laughs than that of my children!

I celebrated my 29th birthday last week and as I took one step closer to 30, I was surprised at how many people wished me a happy birthday while also saying "sucks to get old huh?" To which I replied "not really:)"

How I see it... Aging is just another process we can't control ( sure
It can be masked with lotions and needles and Photoshop;) but the reality is that it's going to happen. I see it as an accomplishment... That I'm still here. That with all the sh*t life thrown me, I'm still pushing along.

So my birthday was indeed a celebration of life, not aging. I was truly surrounded by the most amazing people and appreciated that my day didn't revolve around presents (although I got some lovely things)... It was about me and bringing together all of my friends that may not hang out together otherwise.

Thanks to Jen, the party was memorable and I won't forget it.

The same weekend, I also celebrated something very special and that was that of being a mother. A blessing I am still not sure I deserve because my children are better than any dream I could have had. They are the magic I see in the world. I also celebrated my own mother. I wouldn't change one thing about her. She and my dad even sent me flowers to my work for my birthday;) because they are so far away.

It's hard not having family around sometimes but my friends fill the gap and I am blessed to really feel the light of those in my life.

I also spent the last week moving for the
Summer and continued working out with Jen. Now that we are roommates I'm sure it will be easier to do it everyday. I started P90x and man did I feel it. Jen said she was surprised I was able to keep up (shh so was I:)

So with coming of summer... Things are looking bright. I am welcoming the new things happening and hoping to add a lot more laughter to my days!

Jonathan has been in Portland recording a new album and gets back on Monday. He
Makes me laugh more than anyone so I'm excited for his return!

I hope everyone has a beautiful Sunday... And as always check out the photos of the last few weeks events:)

i may not know a lot... but what i do know... "i know it well."

Ethel: What are you writing about?
Lucy: I'm writing about things I know.
Ethel: That won't be a novel. That will 
be a short story.

Ever have those moments in life where your friends look you in the face and tell you the straight up truth (even when they know you don't wanna hear it)?... well I love those moments.

I mean... in the actual moment I hate them because it's sort of a Jet Li kick of reality to the face... but yeah i come around:)

Jen, my friend/boss is that friend to me. A few posts back I shared some photos we did for the boutique she owns and I work for. I mentioned I would explain how I met her later. 

It's later.

When I was about to get divorced, I went into panic mode... more like FREAKING OUT that I would not be able to support myself. I knew I wanted to keep doing photography, but was new to San Antonio and had not really found my place. Reality really set it that I would eventually have to take care of myself and my children. I had been a stay at home mom for 7 years. My husband supported us the entire time and I didn't have an education to help with getting a job. I knew I had an uphill battle ahead. Now over the last year I had many people who helped me for one reason or another, when they were not obligated and for that I am extremely grateful.

But... I knew it was important to get involved in the community and get my name out there. I did not have the money to place ads or market myself on a large scale as a photographer. I have never been afraid to fail, but I have to admit I was nervous.

Then, one day I am looking on facebook and see all these random ads popping up saying things like "Do you want to be a photographer?" and "Become the photographer you've always wanted to be?" I was so discouraged... by the 4th one I was like "UMMMM stupid facebook, I AMMM a photographer. I just need work!"

I had hit refresh about 5 times looking for anything that would help me find direction. Finally, an ad for a boutique grand opening popped up. I thought if I could do photos for that event, maybe they'd let me pass out business cards or even just meet people.

So I wrote Jen on facebook offering to do photos for the event but didn't hear back. I just brushed it off and moved on. The day before the opening she contacted me saying her photog had bailed and ask if I was still available... I was... and here we are.

A year later, and what a year it has been. We have done photoshoots in two states, fashion shows at 3 locations, facebook marketing talks, and endless appearances at local events. She has been truly accepting of all my life hiccups and I could not ask for a better boss. 

I am blessed to also call her a friend. Also this last year she has given me advice on everything under the sun. From bad boyfriends to financial solutions, she has always been right (she's given me many Jet Li kicks to the face) and for that I am blessed. 

She is a successful, driven girl who is just chasing a dream like the rest of us. Everywhere we go together, we get noticed. I remember the first time I went to an event with Jen the door guy said "10 bucks" she said "Uh, I don't pay..." and we didn't, and haven't since.

Today I am proud of her. With fashion shows to plan and employees to manage, she keeps it together (and heaven knows I drive her crazy) and keeps pushing toward her dream of owning a home in Colorado. She inspires me. She treats everyone who works for her like they are super important and family.

We had a slumber party last night in anticipation for being featured on San Antonio Living today... Below is the video from the show today and photos from last night.

Congrats JEN on taking another step to that home on the mountain! I love you.

Pillow fight anyone?

Megan and I proving we are kinda still young...

 

Rare chill moments...

 

Behind the boss's back...

 

After our "appearance"...
 

Jen and I of course getting more photos of ourselves. duh.
 

 
      

Tomorrow is my 29th birthday... I will be back with my 30 things to do before 30. I'm pretty excited about it!! I have a feeling it's going to be a great year.

Oh hi...

Faves this week... 

Fave song: "Hey Daddy" by Usher 

Fave nail polish: Space plastic blue 

Fave Snowcone: Key Lime Pie with coconut 

Fave hair color: Intense Red by ION 

Fave iPhone app: QIK Fave Pandora Station: Bon Iver 

Fave photographer: http://claytonaustinlovestories.com 

Fave snack: Laughing Cow with Wheat thins 

Fave sound: the neighbors windchimes

Fave smell: After rain 

Happy Monday friends!

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